Rick Astley who am I?

The flame-hungry Rick Astley said it best in his 1980's classic 'Never Gonna Give You Up' when he stated...

"Never gonna give you up,

never gonna let you down,

never gonna run around and desert you".

He was, of course, referring to his lover whereas I am applying this cheesy yet poignant adage to my dreams and aspirations. As the past two years have been periods of immense growth and change for me I have seen some incredible highs and some misery-making lows in that time. And I have asked myself the questions 'what am I?' and 'who do I want to be?' more times than I care to admit. However, it is as 2010 draws to a close that I realise that I am now in the most focused part of my life yet. Comedy is the key and whilst I continue to question whether it is reverence or fame which I seek, change or glory, recognition or contentment... perhaps even all of the above, what does not need questioning is what path will take me towards the answers I seek. Performance. Stand up comedy was born for me at the start of this year and in 10 short months I have done much more than I ever could have hoped for in this new found passion. Next year is about continuing to grow as a comic, but also to add more time to my comic acting with the birth of characters, recording of sketches and comedy virals and further rise in the volume of live performances I undertake.

In short, next year appears to be even more exciting and promising than this one and I will be one year closer towards that first Hollywood comedy role I have set myself as a goal to be reached. It's taken a long while to calm my impatience enough to realise that it's not a race and the craft and content must not suffer due to frustration. Instead I am working on enjoying the journey, one rife with laughter, growth and promiscuity. Perhaps I should put the habitual lascivious behaviour on the back-burner a bit to increase focus even more on achieving those lofty aspirations.

In the mean time enjoy some inspiring words from Rob Schneider...